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"These are my confessions.
Man I'm throwed and I dont know what to do. I guess I gotta give you part 2 of my confessions. If I'm gonna tell it then I gotta tell it all. Damn near cried when I got that phone call. I'm so throwed and I don't know what to do
But to give you part 2 of my confessions."
I've been really depressed lately. I can't quite put my finger on it and it really bothers me.
We're moving next month.
Isn't it peculiar, when you finally have everything that will make you happy, and you aren't really nearly as happy as you thought you were?
Not to say that you aren't ever happy, but it’s an exterior kind of happy. You become happy, but you aren't happy where it really counts. On the inside. Your core. The driving force that IS you.
And that’s another thing. “…make you happy.” I don’t know that you can MAKE someone happy. The only thing that you can make someone feel is pain.
Everybody's got a hunger, no matter where they are. Everybody clings to their own fear. Everybody hides some scar.
Have you ever wanted to fuck your life up really bad, just so things can only get better for you from that point on?
I think I have a drinking problem. And I really really don't care. It is the only thing that I feel happy doing. And I hate that. I spent $$$$$ in two weeks at the bars.
I’ve been drinking more, sleeping less. Flirting more, fucking less. Crying more, feeling less. Talking all the time and saying nothing.
You are helpless,
You are selfish,
You are hollow inside,
You are hopeless...
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